Memory Book for my Mom

For those that don't know my Mom is disabled.

She fell and hurt her back November 2004 at her work and has had difficulty standing and walking for long periods of time. Ever since her injury, she has seen over 15 doctors and has been on over 40 different types of mediciation. She is dependant on medication just to function daily.

With that all being said, she is beginning to show signs of early dementia (which I feel is due to her extended use of certain medications, but I digress). I've noticed that she is having some issues with her memory for the most part.

My project now is to make a memory book for her. She has boxes of pictures and 35mm negatives that I need to go through. It will be hard I think because my mom has never shown me any picures of her childhood, her family, or talked to me about the good parts of her childhood. My sister showed me ap icture of my grandmother (who passed before I was born) about 3 years ago. My mom said she has pictures of the reservations they lived on (she is Cherokee Indian) and I have never seen these things before. It will be sort of theraputic for me I think as well because maybe for once I might actually get to know my mom for real.

I want Alyssa to know who I am, to know what I value, to see people that are important and played a part in my life, etc. I want my daughter to know my heart and see my passion for the Lord, for our family, and for others.

My goal is to complete this by Christmas, but I think I will need ALOT more time to get it the way I want it. But, time is the enemy here...the longer it takes, the more she forgets. To think that one day, she'll see me and think of me as someone just passing by makes me very sad. Very sad.

I supose one good thing about her losing her memory is that she finally forgets the horror and pain that accompanied various points in her life. But within those awful moments, there were ones of joy that she held onto to help her survive.