For those that don't know my Mom is disabled.
She fell and hurt her back November 2004 at her work and has had difficulty standing and walking for long periods of time. Ever since her injury, she has seen over 15 doctors and has been on over 40 different types of mediciation. She is dependant on medication just to function daily.
With that all being said, she is beginning to show signs of early dementia (which I feel is due to her extended use of certain medications, but I digress). I've noticed that she is having some issues with her memory for the most part.
My project now is to make a memory book for her. She has boxes of pictures and 35mm negatives that I need to go through. It will be hard I think because my mom has never shown me any picures of her childhood, her family, or talked to me about the good parts of her childhood. My sister showed me ap icture of my grandmother (who passed before I was born) about 3 years ago. My mom said she has pictures of the reservations they lived on (she is Cherokee Indian) and I have never seen these things before. It will be sort of theraputic for me I think as well because maybe for once I might actually get to know my mom for real.
I want Alyssa to know who I am, to know what I value, to see people that are important and played a part in my life, etc. I want my daughter to know my heart and see my passion for the Lord, for our family, and for others.
My goal is to complete this by Christmas, but I think I will need ALOT more time to get it the way I want it. But, time is the enemy here...the longer it takes, the more she forgets. To think that one day, she'll see me and think of me as someone just passing by makes me very sad. Very sad.
I supose one good thing about her losing her memory is that she finally forgets the horror and pain that accompanied various points in her life. But within those awful moments, there were ones of joy that she held onto to help her survive.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
I can't lie about it.
It's been a rough couple of months.
But it's getting better and maybe we'll be on the other side of this mountain soon.
Getting settled, finding employment, keeping a steady paycheck. It's been very tough for us. Financially and mostly emotionally. We've spent hours pouring over the computer finding places to apply at, hours talking to friends on the phones to use their respources and connections, going to the library to print the applications and resumes out, dropping them off in our nicest clothes and waiting for days...weeks for maybe a phone call. Then, you get a call for a possible interview at a place you really don't want to work at, but will so you can provide for your famiy. You interview and they turn you down because they can see based on your resume that this position is not where your passion lies. As Bobby put it: "Who really wants to sell furniture their whole life!?" If you someone to work then hire him!
Luckily, I was able to get a job with the state again. I very much DO enjoy my job, even with its intensity at times. I enjoy meeting families and children in need and working with them to help encourage the positives and the strengths I see in them. I want to help change the lives of adults and children in my community for the better. I have three years of this experience already.
I had looked into Liberty's Masters program: Masters of Art in Human Services-Emphasis on Marriage and Famlies. It's a 30 hours program, but I can have 6 hours transfer in so it would only be a 24 hours program and could be completed in less than a year. Because then, I would just need to take the Praxis II and could apply to be a guidance counselor and work more one-on-one with teenagers. I have daydreamed about this opportunity. I don't feel called to complete my Masters degree yet-but I daydream about it all the time. Until we feel called by God to go back to school-then we won't. The decisions I make affect my family-Bobby and Alyssa. If I go back to school, it causes our family to incur more debt financially and I would also miss outon spending quality time with my family. Like I said, until we are called back to school-then I suppose it's okay to daydream about it.
I started feeling better in August. It has been 6 months since my dad died and I feel stronger now than I have in the past when I think about him. Grandparents day was hard-I felt sorrow for Alyssa. I think I would have forgotten about this day, except at the daycare, the staff (super friendly and awesome staff!) did a craft project with her little handprint on it and a letter. I'd like to go back to his memorial at Arlington next year-I'm not sure if I'm ready yet.
We know that we are supposed to be here in Charleston-for how long, only God knows. We are continuing to seek His will for our lives. Please pray for us as we continue to pray and search for a job for Bobby.
It's been a rough couple of months.
But it's getting better and maybe we'll be on the other side of this mountain soon.
Getting settled, finding employment, keeping a steady paycheck. It's been very tough for us. Financially and mostly emotionally. We've spent hours pouring over the computer finding places to apply at, hours talking to friends on the phones to use their respources and connections, going to the library to print the applications and resumes out, dropping them off in our nicest clothes and waiting for days...weeks for maybe a phone call. Then, you get a call for a possible interview at a place you really don't want to work at, but will so you can provide for your famiy. You interview and they turn you down because they can see based on your resume that this position is not where your passion lies. As Bobby put it: "Who really wants to sell furniture their whole life!?" If you someone to work then hire him!
Luckily, I was able to get a job with the state again. I very much DO enjoy my job, even with its intensity at times. I enjoy meeting families and children in need and working with them to help encourage the positives and the strengths I see in them. I want to help change the lives of adults and children in my community for the better. I have three years of this experience already.
I had looked into Liberty's Masters program: Masters of Art in Human Services-Emphasis on Marriage and Famlies. It's a 30 hours program, but I can have 6 hours transfer in so it would only be a 24 hours program and could be completed in less than a year. Because then, I would just need to take the Praxis II and could apply to be a guidance counselor and work more one-on-one with teenagers. I have daydreamed about this opportunity. I don't feel called to complete my Masters degree yet-but I daydream about it all the time. Until we feel called by God to go back to school-then we won't. The decisions I make affect my family-Bobby and Alyssa. If I go back to school, it causes our family to incur more debt financially and I would also miss outon spending quality time with my family. Like I said, until we are called back to school-then I suppose it's okay to daydream about it.
I started feeling better in August. It has been 6 months since my dad died and I feel stronger now than I have in the past when I think about him. Grandparents day was hard-I felt sorrow for Alyssa. I think I would have forgotten about this day, except at the daycare, the staff (super friendly and awesome staff!) did a craft project with her little handprint on it and a letter. I'd like to go back to his memorial at Arlington next year-I'm not sure if I'm ready yet.
We know that we are supposed to be here in Charleston-for how long, only God knows. We are continuing to seek His will for our lives. Please pray for us as we continue to pray and search for a job for Bobby.
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